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While I’m Waiting: John Waller

Friday, November 30th, 2007

For those of you who have not heard John Wallers “While I’m Waiting” I highly recommend you track this song down. I tried to find it on myspace, but John Waller doesn’t have this one listed…

I first heard this song about a year ago. The ministry team I was leading was going through some division due to some decisions and changes and I hadn’t been able to attend the worship session in quite some time. Finally God placed a true leader on my team and Travis and I were able to hear this song the very first time John played it for our congregation. I was so close to my breaking point, yet God used this song to remind me that I hadn’t been forgotten, and I had a responsibility to continue on the path that I knew was right…though it is painful…and it’s not easy…

Since we lost the baby, God continues to put these words that I love so dearly on my heart. A week ago God let me know it was time to start serving again. Even though I do believe I serve Him every day when I love on my daughter and husband. Every day when I am a good steward of our blessings by cleaning my house and working on the never ending laundry, but yet, I know I can do more…While I’m Waiting… I will serve you, as I’m waiting…

In the shower, when I am alone with God and my tears blend with the hot water and no one can hear me cry and no one feels sorry for me, I hear it… I will move ahead, bold and confident… (more…)

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Black Friday

Monday, November 26th, 2007

After the ultrasound on Tuesday I had some light spotting. Unfortunately, yesterday the spotting continued and progressed to more steady bleeding. We called the doctor and she said we should be fine to wait until today to get checked out.

We went in to the office today and after an ultrasound it was determined the baby no longer has a heartbeat. The doctor said there is a less than 5% chance of this happening, since the baby appeared to be in such good standing less than a week ago. However, for what ever reason God’s plan does not include this child with our family. The baby died just three days after our ultrasound – “Black Friday”, November 23, 2007. A year ago this time Monkey was having tubes put in her ears. This year we celebrated her big sister status and had her ears pierced.

It is just hard to believe that something that was so alive less than 7 days ago, is now gone. That being said, we know it is not without reason. While it is hard to accept, both Travis and I have taken great comfort in the fact that God does have a plan for us and He loves us and will take care of us… but oh how I would love to see what He sees right now.

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Big sister Monkey got pierced!

Friday, November 23rd, 2007

We had never wanted to pierce Monkeys ears while she was still a “baby”. The conversation would come and go, but we had decided every time she was still too little. As time went on, we decided that it was something we could do when she became a big sister. We put the idea out of our heads since that wasn’t going to happen for a while.

Well, as most of you have already heard she is going to be a big sister. Therefore, today we took the plunge and took her Jack and Jill’s Childrens salon and had the deed done. They were great with her and pierced both ears at the same time to avoid more pain and fear than necessary, and she did great! She cried for a little bit, but both of the women working said she did better than most little girls.

She does look a little more grown up now… Travis said about a year older. Even so, in our hearts, she will always be our baby.

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